Hey!…

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will you still love me, if i look like this?

yes. that was me. way back during those ancient years.
i was at 72 kilos at my heaviest, and it was one of those dark period of my life.
and FYI, i’m only standing at 1.68m short.
i’m sure you guys won’t believe it was me.
i know some people would say, NO WAY!!!

well, that’s a picture of me and my family ( hari raya 1999 ). i guessed, i can’t really fake my own family now, can i??? wahahahahahah… yes. that was me. no editing what so ever. and hack, if i know how to edit pictures to make me LOOK like that, i would be so happy to edit my pictures and make myself look so much leaner and more good looking for that matters!

wahahahahahaahahahha

i wasn’t born with a skinny, thin genes. and yes, i don’t blame anyone for that matters. but i do have to admit, during those times, when i was * ahem *, i do own a gorgeous smile. i love my smile a lot back then. it was just natural, and seemed so genuine.

i guessed, my point in this entry is that, not many people know how i have struggle with my weight problems since i was like in my late teens ( i just keep piling the weights before i was enlisted to national service ).

the only people who knew, were my family members, my relatives and of course, my very close friends. and not forgetting, the trauma that i had received from my relatives. it was very painful and brutal. so i guessed, i know how a certain blogger feels when she was teased by her relatives.

the name callings, the pinching and the hurtful remarks. yes, i’ve been through those dark period of my life. why do they pick on me? i guessed, i was the only ‘BIG’ size in my family. that is the reasons why i don’t fancy meeting my relatives during Hari Raya. seeing them, and knowing how they had ridiculed me back then, it was something that i would rather skip or ignored completely.

that is why i am posing this question to a personal someone.
would you LOVE me if i look anything like my previous self? i know its not a fair question, but hack, it does serve a purpose to me.

anyway, i did what MR MALIQUE had taught during his :

Tutorial : How to create your own clones!

though i have to admit, i am not really THAT GOOD yet. i don’t really know how to blend my legs for the 1st and 2nd clone respectively… hehehehehehe. but i guessed, its a good practice! so thanks to MR MALIQUE, i learned something new!!!

and by the way, i’m not really good at editing my very own pictures. yes, i can clear up my pimples, and i can make my face less shiny. its simple really. all you need to use is the ‘blur’ tool… that’s pretty much i can do.

if i can really edit my pictures so darn well, i won’t mind adding more lean meat in there!!! wahahahahahahahahha.

so for those of you guys who are heading towards fitness, i can assure you,
it will be a step worth taking.
though the process can be slow, and leaves you with a few aches and such,
but trust me, its worth it.

leading a healthy lifestyle has never make me feel good about myself.

so yes, YOU,
yes YOU…
WOULD YOU STILL love me if I look anything like the one right on TOP???
WILL you?
will you????….

anyway, i’m up for being a spokesperson for EXPRESSION men or whatever…
CALL ME!!!!

wahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahaha

not happy with the first one… did another…
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA :p